Have you ever fallen for someone you know won't like you back?
It's horrible, isn't it?
The truth eats you up inside, and all you want is to be with them, even knowing that you won't ever get the chance to. It's hard to face the truth, that no matter how many times you could dream about them there'll be no chance of "together" ever happening.
You build up so much armour around you, just to not get hurt and a stupid person, who is not at all different from any other comes along and flashes you a smile that turns your stomach and crumbles your Armour down to nothing. You give your heart to them, but unaware of it, they break it. They toy with it, They break you, and your heart. They'll never know how much they affected you, how they turned your stomach and made you start to stutter with a bat of an eyelash.
It's horrible because even a simple little phrase such as "You're my best friend" takes up a huge space in your mind and it still keeps on living there, impaling itself into your mind and heart.
Liking someone is horrible, and it hurts. Not just "I'm fine i'll get over it hurt" Not just "S/He broke me" hurt. It's a sting of rejection. It's a broken heart hurt. It's emotional hurt. It's wondering what you could've done to make them like you better. It's a sense of doubt, It's the sting of rejection, It's a real "tears you apart, makes you want to scream, blast music and try to mute the pain" hurt and nothing can fix it.
It's having to move on after devoting so much time and thought to just one person.
I hate liking someone.
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