* update! ^-^

Why hello there Blogspot & August.

It's been almost 4 months since my last post. 

and there are so many things to blog and update.

Anyways. I was in the Philippines for a month. It was fucking amazing. The culture there is so different from here in Canada but I guess that's a given since ... well, You know. It's Asia. Halfway across the world. My cousins there are amazing but I do think that the ones on my father's side are cooler than the ones on my mothers side but I think that's mostly because of the huge age gap. The ones on my mothers side are nearly 30 while the ones on my dads side are just everywhere. And I love them to bits. The Fantastic 4 is what I refer to when I speak of my amazing kuyas in the Philippines. Kuya Lexus, Kuya Gerald, Kuya Jorelle & Kuya Sayreel. I miss them so much. Much more than words can describe. Also, I miss Ate Me Ann. You know, most people find me intimidating. Like, I apparently have a look where I'm apparently hard to talk to and they don't bother getting to know me. But Ate Me Ann poked her way into my life and was one of the few who actually cared about me so much. I miss my Ate. She's truly like my sister. ): She drove us everywhere and she was there to help us with everything and I miss her so much. Anyways, we spent 2 weeks in Cavite and 2 weeks in Quezon. I finally got to go to the beach! We went to Batangas for 2 days and it was really fun actually. Kuya Chad and Kuya Michael were watching us when we swam. A shark came waaaay too close to us for our liking though. ): Anyways. oh. Yeah, car crash. and um. an unfortunate boyfriend who cheated on me like a fucking little gouaehjaeklh. I will not be blogging about them. Anyways, yeah. Um. So Cavite is basically carabaw. Carabaw everywhere. Quezon city is much more my pace. Also, Chowking is everything. CHOWKING IS BETTER THAN ANYTHING. I don't know. I didn't really like Jollibee that much. :P I liked their palabok but their chicken joy was kinda weird. I MISS SARSI. I MISS SARSI AND ROYAL I CAN'T EVEN. ALSO THE MANGOES. Philippine Mangoes are amazing. So yeah blah blah blah. Went to Amana Waterpark. Went to SM Fairview, Trinoma, Mall Of Asia. Blah blah blah. But yeah <3 and="and" anything="anything" back="back" d="d" do="do" go="go" i="i" loved="loved" philippines="philippines" span="span" the="the" to="to">

Know what else? I have a boyfriend! Yes. and actual real boyfriend. Woot Tyler <3 a="a" about="about" aladdin="aladdin" although="although" amazing="amazing" amp="amp" and="and" answer="answer" anyone="anyone" ask="ask" beauty="beauty" best="best" better="better" bits="bits" black="black" boyfriend.="boyfriend." boyfriend="boyfriend" chin="chin" coffee="coffee" colourful="colourful" cute.="cute." cute="cute" dorky="dorky" else="else" enough="enough" everything.="everything." for="for" friend.="friend." from="from" get="get" has="has" have="have" he="he" head.="head." him="him" his="his" honestly="honestly" i="i" if="if" in="in" is="is" it="it" james="james" jasmine.="jasmine." jasmine="jasmine" just.="just." just="just" kind.="kind." kind="kind" know="know" knows="knows" language.="language." likes="likes" lily.="lily." lot.="lot." loud="loud" love="love" mario="mario" me.="me." me="me" most="most" much.="much." music.="music." music="music" my="my" of="of" on="on" one="one" only="only" passion="passion" peach.="peach." people="people" person="person" princess="princess" question="question" rae="rae" reads="reads" rest="rest" s="s" see="see" sometimes="sometimes" span="span" speaks="speaks" t="t" tall.="tall." tall="tall" than="than" the="the" them.="them." thing="thing" tiny="tiny" to="to" too="too" trivial="trivial" true="true" ttractiveness="ttractiveness" unique.="unique." villanueva.="villanueva." weird.="weird." well.="well." well="well" were="were" where="where" wouldn="wouldn" yeahup.="yeahup." you="you">
I love him to bits.
He’s my loser/dork/boyfriend/soulmate/stupidface <3 span="span">

Until next time, blogger <3 span="span">

30 Hour Famine - April 13th and 14th
30 hour famine. 


Greatest night ever. 


At first, it was kind of hard to deal with hunger but after a while it really does start to numb and it’s like “You’re not getting any food at all so stay hungry but don’t feel anything”. So, I walked through the school door, checked into the cafeteria and then I had to look for the guys. Well, I found them in a corner with all the outlets and shit and Patrick forgot the kitchen sink. Hahah. He had a hugeass blow up mattress set up in a corner with his laptop and the rest of his stuff. Anyways, Yeah. so I put down my sleeping bag and shit at the foot of the mattress with ryans stuff and I went to go sit in a corner and I kinda fell asleep on Tyler. Yeah. Er- so we started ice breakers and Tyler was our leader for rock paper scissors and we had a huge group with us. But then we lost and it was awkward. I don;’t really remember a lot of stuff after that though. We played a game where you had to group yourselves into a number but I decided to ditch that and play guitar. So after I kept trying to make Tyler uncomfortable but it didn’t work that well because I got uncomfortable. “Hey Jasmine, wanna play a game called firetruck?” LOLNO TYLER. loljk but yeah. I sat on him. and he lay on me. Yeah, way to keep it G. xD Then Breanna came along and we all played Mario kart on DS! Yeah, that was kinda fun. So. then we got into super boring groups and we played ninja but everyone in my group sucked at it. It was like, 10 pm by then and everyone was still awake. So we played more mario kart! Yeah. I just remember a presentation and I fell asleep for one of them and Tyler woke me up and Patrick drew on me and apparently I should stop wearing off the shoulder shirts because Tyler kept snapping my bra strap and yeah. I fell asleep. Patrick drew on me. Actually, He drew on everyone. The movie started at 1:05 I think and it was the help and it was kind of boring. I don;t remember what I did then but then I moved my sleeping bag to the corner and I fell asleep around 2:05 ish and I fell asleep by Tyler. Yeah, I don’t know either. He fell asleep and I woke up at 2:30 ish and everyone was like, harrassing Ryan. He’s kinda mean when he’s tired. It’s kind of great. So. Yeah…. Ben was dared to lick Tyler and we played Eye Of The Tiger while doing it and Ben kept laughing. So I stayed up for the rest of the night and I played Mario on Tyler’s DS for like an hour and read Beastly until 5:30 am. I’m pretty sure I’m leaving a bunch of shit out but I can’t really remember because I’ve been drifting in and out of sleep since like, 5. Oh, and for breakfast I had a cookie but I felt like I was going to throw up after it. Yeah. 
Ticklish.
It’s really awkward when Ben has bigger boobs than you do. 


I don’t know where that came from but Tyler sat on me and he had his leg on my ass and he kept tickling me and apparently I squeak when I’m ticklish. He kept laughing at me. -__- Also, I spent like, half an hour lying on him and sitting on him. Yeah, I was trying to make him uncomfortable but I think I was the one who was uncomfortable. Yeah, Also, He snaps my bra strap. It’s kinda awkward and it doesn’t help that he only does it because I tell him not to and to wake me up. I got stuck between an air mattress and a wall because of him. :| 

Second Semester.

Second Semester, My schedule is


Graphic Arts
Geography
Photography
- LUNCH -
Jewellery Arts
Math Essentials


YAY! I only have ... 3 exams to worry about. Whatever, I had 3 last semester too. But this semester I'm going to be gone for a month. An ocean will separate me and my family away from my family. :| I'm so excited for the Philippines though. My sisters are being brats about it. They don't want to go but they won't tell me why. I don't think I'll have a lot to worry about. I understand the language just fine, and I'm learning it.


Hm. Anyways, I will random shit
I want to kiss him
I want to kiss him
I want to kiss him
I want to kiss him
Um, So apparently I'm a whore now. For kissing one boy. And for deciding to stay friends with him. Even though he's fine with it. Ok guys. Apparently I'm a whore. But I think it's more of a life experience. I can't describe it though.  I wish some people would just stay out of our relationship though. I mean, if it doesn't concern you then leave it be. :'|
... I think making out with poprocks would be fun
WHAT AM I EVEN SAYING .,


Anyways. Besides the point.
Jewellery arts is fun. Whole lot of work to make one piece or jewellery though. Er- is it bad that I really want to kiss someone with poprocks. Why do I even keep going back to that point. whganijgakhgajgla. Yeah, ok.
I should probably go to sleep. I'm seeing stars right now. It's only 11:08 too. :|


So. Um. Goodnight. (Miguel) :P

My first kiss went a little like this...

It was awkward. It was perfectly awkward. But it was so perfectly awkward and oh my gosh I can't believe I kissed someone .

Makeup.

Her hand shakes as she once again picks up that god forsaken tube. “Is this what’ll make me supposedly pretty?” she wonders as she sweeps the colourful dirt on her face. “Is this how I want people to see me?, Superficial and weak? succumbing to rubbing colourful dirt on my cheeks, and eye lids to be seen as pretty?” 

She’s got a lot to offer. She’s funny. She’s smart. She’s nice. She’s easy to talk to. But does that matter when she sees herself as not pretty? 

She picks up the skin toned cream and smooths it across her blemishes. Battle scars. It’s what they are. Don’t they usually say that you should wear them with pride? Not in this society. Not in this damn society where anorexia is what girls are wearing these days and the pressure to be thin or pretty is sinking into their pores.

“Can’t they love me for me? Look beyond my face and body and love me for everything that makes me, Well. Me?” she ponders as she puts down the brush and looks at herself in the mirror, and is met with a look of hate at the monster in the mirror. “Can’t they see me for me? and not just a shadow of what I could be?”

Homework.

Homework. 


It’s definitely what I’m doing right now. I’m not going to think about how small this pencil is and how his fingers would fit so perfectly inbetween them, nor am I thinking about how perfect we’d be together. I can’t help but look over at him and smile at his chesnut brown hair that just looks oh so soft, and how I’d love to run my fingers through it and he’d smile into our kiss and I’d smile back. 


Wait! Homework. I am doing homework, I am not thinking about him. I am not going to think about him.I’m not going to think about how my fingers are clenching this pencil.  I’m not going to think about his muscles. I’m not going to think about the way he holds me in his arms when I ask for a hug and I’m definitely not going to think about how great it’d be for him to hold me like that in bed. 


Homework. Back to the fucking homework. The pen writes so smoothly on this piece of paper and I can only remember how smoothly he walks, with a bounce in his walk as he throws back his head and laughs at something his friend said but I don’t really know what his friend said because all I can hear is his deep laughter and watch his adorable dimple pop out against his cheeks.  He doesn’t know how crazy he drives me with everything, the way he smells, his tenor voice or the way his hair shines under the sunlight.


 Er- What was I doing? Homework. Right, That’s what I was doing. Multiply this shit by that shit and get 2 … 2, Perfect two. That’d be us. Us 2. Just us 2 and it’d be great and you better bet your money that if that 2 ever turned into 3, someone is going to get punched in the face.


Oh god, I can’t stop thinking about him. I can’t stop thinking about what we could be. He’s essential. He’s like water, Only I need him more than 8 times a day. He’s my everything.


… Fucking homework. 

- Useless crap you don't need to know about me -

I'm just going to keep this here so I can see how much of a tool I was when I was a teenager. 


How to win my heart; 


1) BE FUNNY! Let's be funny together and we'll laugh at everything and have inside jokes everywhere. I don't even care, as long as we can laugh at things together and you can make me laugh then I'm alright with that.


2) I like hugs. I like tight hugs. I like hugs where the person wraps their arms around you. Yeah, I like hugs. 


3) It never hurts to be a bit smart. 


4) I'd be impressed if you knew how to play an instrument (preferably a guitar because then you could bond with my dad even though he's crazy and stuff, with that being said, I guess another way to win my heart is to accept my crazy batshit family for who they are) 


5) Style never hurts anyone. I find plaid shirts on guys attractive. I really do. 




I shall add more crap to that later.


But Right now, I think I'll try to explain how much I like *him*



so I think you’re really really cute and I love all the little things you do in class even though some people think you’re a freak because you hate a lot of things but I know you don’t really hate them and I love sitting by you every every morning this semester and I love the way you write even though it’s shitty and I kind of hate how you call me a bitch even though it’s true and I like how you tell me the truth while everyone lies and I think we should hang out sometime and we could go on a date and I really want to kiss you even though i’ve never kissed anyone before and I kind of really want to kiss you because apparently it’s fun so I think we should do it and I really wish you liked me even though I know you don’t which kind of hurts but that’s okay because I’m used to it and I know that sounds really sad but I really like you and I have no idea why but people don’t really like you because they think you’re mean and vulgar and stuff but they never really took the time to know you and did I mention I think you’re adorable?


My ideal date; 



We’d make our own lunch & take it to the park and have a picnic together.


We’d leave our cellphones and all forms of communication behind, so it’d be us. Just us and nothing else. 


Of course, we’d bring a bunch of different polaraids and take dumb photos together and laugh it off afterwards.


We’d hold hands and act like complete idiots together, but it’d be okay, because we’d be each others idiots. 


We’d spend the day in the park & just be complete fools together and others would watch and laugh, because they’d remember being in love. 


When the sun starts to set, we’d take out a blanket & cuddle and watch the orange sun fade to a dark blue as the stars would start to appear.


We’d point out constellations and laugh as we’d make up completely stupid ones. 


& at the end of the night, We’d have stupid smiles imprinted on our mouths and reminisce at what we had done all day. 


It’d be fun. Just you & me. Let’s go on a cheap date.

My best friends as of now;

1) Ryan Job. Crazy Mexican who lets me push him around. 


2) Christie Balanduk. Best friend with a british accent


3) Miguel Carlos. I bitch at him and he'll bitch back. We are bitches together, also people ship us together and it scares me. // Finally met on January 27. 


4) Tyler Michaud. - Jewfro loser who I like to hug because he is squishy. 


5) Jea Besana. She is great. She's so funny and sometimes she can get annoying but that is alright. 


6) Lyka Sal-Long. My twinny. She is hilarious and so cute. LOL, She's my chibi vampire. xD


7) Kellie Jeffery/Emily Neufeld/ Serena Singh. They are too great. They are my gym best friends and I love them. They're great & they're all from different places. Kellie is from Australia, Emily is from Texas and Serena is from India. They are great.


Also, This is me as of now.

Ryan thinks I'm cute. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.