I haven't posted in a while.

What if I told you my parents didn't believe in me?
What if I told you that was the reason I refuse to sing in public and the reason why I refuse to sing in choir any more. 
What if I told you that was why I don't even believe in myself any more when it comes to anything musical? 


What would you do then. 

Boy Next Door chapter 1./

Eh, I just wanted to post this on a blog or something. 

Ugh, It's a story I started in grade 6. Yes, It's super cheesy and teenage love-ish. 

Also, if you see the name "Ryan" anywhere, it's because I changed the name so it would be less awkward writing it without thinking of Ryan. xD. I'm still thinking of changing his name to Caleb or Isaac, but right now it's stuck at Gabriel. & I know it's super rushed but hey, I was in grade 6. Lay off. 

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I look at him. Like, REALLY look at him. Somehow, this isn't the same boy I've known for so many years. Somethings changed, and I really don't know what.., Somethings just.. different.I mean, He's still the same Gabriel Miyamoto as he was 10 years ago when I first moved down the street next door to him, But somehow, Somethings changed.. and I really can't tell what. He still has the same black hair, hazel eyes, and a dimples in his cheek, He honestly could be a male model, and I used to tell him that, but everytime I did, he would call me a retard and laugh. The only difference between then and now, is that he's taller, and he has broader shoulders. I guess that's what puberty brings when you turn 14 and you're a boy.

We've done this a hundred times, maybe even a million, We've sat on the top of the willow tree in his backyard, watching the sunset together. He turns to me, and his eyes lock with mine 

"Annika, Why are you looking at me so weirdly? Have you finally noticed my extreme hottness?" He says cracking a grin I've seen so many times before. 

"You wish.." I say, stifling a giggle. Gabriel so cocky, But I guess I should know that, being his best friend and all. He lives next door to me, and I remember the first time I met him, I made him cry. But it was by accident I swear, He and his mom came over to greet us, and she introduced me to him, and I asked him if he wanted to play tag, and he tripped over a rock and scraped his knee. I guess it wouldn't be such a huge deal now but we were both 5 then. Now we're 14, and we're starting highschool together.

"Gabe... "I say out loud, breaking the silence. "I can't believe I've known you for a decade" I say. 

"Yeah... Same. I can't believe we're starting highschool. It's such a huge place" he said. 

"Highschool.. Freshmen again. You thinking about signing up for JV basketball?" I ask, already knowing the answer is a yes, it's been his favourite sport since forever, and his favourite team is the Chicago Bulls. 

"Hell to the yeah! How else do you think I'm going to get my basketball scholarship? Besides, the cheerleaders are supposed to be really hott" He said with a wink. 

"Ugh, Gabriel, you're such a guy" I say. We sit in silence, the sky is turning a soft pink and dark blue with stars twinkling in the sky. 

"Annika..?" he says softly. My stomach flutters. Is it possible? No. It can't be. He's my BROTHER, My buddy, my best friend. 

"Annika!" he says a little louder. 

"Hmm? Yeah?" I answer, my stomach is fluttering.

 "You're falling.." he says, as he places his hand over mine. My pulse skyrockets, and I realize I almost was falling off the tree branch. I want this moment to last forever. Sitting together. His hand on mine. 

"Thanks .." I say, He's not moving his hand. And in one swift movement, He's holding it. I look down, our fingers interlocking, It just feels so comfortable, like my fingers were meant to be inbetween his.. I look up and he's blushing madly, staring straight ahead.

Or, at least that's what I wish as to what could've happened, But no. I'm sitting atop a trampoline, 10ft from where I was sitting before. I look up, and Gabe is laughing. He pushes himself off the tree branch, and now he's lying next to me, still laughing. That stupid jerk. "It's really not that funny.." I say 

"Yeah it is! You should've seen your face when I pushed you off. So frickin' hilarious." He says. 

"You're such a jerk.. " I say to him.

"I know right?" he says back with a smile. He sits up, and I sit beside him. Sitting in silence together. 

Soon the pink in the sky is gone, and the sky is dusted with a million stars. We've done this a million times, but now it feels so different. Something's changed, and I'm positive it's not me. My heart is beating so fast, but it's not from the fall.

 "Ga -" I say, turning to him, but it's cut off, he was already looking at me. Right now, I could see every eyelash on his eye lid , and the moonlight reflecting off his eyes . We really were that close. He starts to move his face closer, slowly rotating it, and his eyes are closing. No. This can't happen. My first kiss. With Gabriel? 

NOT.POSSIBLE. My body is disobeying my brain. Why is it not answering? I don't get it. I start to close my eyes, I can feel his breathe on my lips. 

All of a sudden, we hear "Gabriel, Oh. Oops, Did I interrupt something?", Our eyes open fast and we turn, and we see his mom, She's smiling, and asks if I would like to stay for dinner. I quickly answer no, and jump off the trampoline, not looking at Gabe. 

How could I have let this happen? He's my best friend. Not my boyfriend. He makes fun of me. He calls me names. He laughs when I get hurt. How could this have happened? When did he start to like me? I just don't get it..

- END OF CHAPTER 1- 

Eh. Cheesy. & Cliche. and just. eh. Whatevs, I was in grade 6. I'm not so sure as to what should happen in the next chapter. 

Cover? Maybe.

Hm. I'm actually kind of thinking of doing this for a cover

The 5 challenge ^-^

5 basic facts about you

1) I play guitar and ukulele. 

2) Reading & Writing are a huge passion in my life

3) I love making new friends. I am apparently good at talking to people. 

4) I am fat. 

5) I love writing fanfiction

5 not-so-basic facts about you

1) I've been on tumblr since 2009, thus making me an original on tumblr.

2) I hate hate HATE following trends. I'll wear what I want, Comfort over trend anyday

3) I hate makeup. I think it's seen as false beauty, but I wear it anyways sometimes to be a hypocrite.

4) I am a grammar nazi. 

5) I have huge hipster glasses that I just recently got.

5 ways you break the ice

1) I usually crack a joke and smile and attempt to act cute

2) I'll smile and ask what their name is

3) I'll bring a friend over, and I'll make them introduce them to me

4) I'll crack a smile and say hello

5) I'll be a fat penguin. They break the ice.

5 signs that you’re into someone

1) I'll laugh at everything they say, even if it's not funny

2) I'll try to spend a lot of time with them 

3) I'll talk to them a lot & smile a lot 

4) I'll tease them just a bit more than I should

5) After I tease them, I'll feel a little bad and try to make it better.

5 signs that you’re NOT into someone

1) I'll be completely mean to them

2) I'll make up excuses to break off plans with them

3) I'll talk about the guy I like with that person 

4) I'll flirt with other guys in front of them

5) I'll just stop talking to them 

5 things you do when you’re bored

1) I'll blog about random crap

2) I'll eat food and get fat. xD

3) I'll study my school stuff if I need to 

4) I'll clean my room 

5) I'll play my guitar & ukulele and try to cover something

5 things that make you hyper

1) I'll eat candy and stuff with sugar in it 

2) I'll will myself to be hyper

3) When i'm around people I love

4) When I'm at an exciting place with so much to do and see

5) Er- Um. I don't know. 

5 things you’re known for

1) For being super loud and stuff

2) For being a supposedly "good" singer

3) For being a funny bitch

4) For being short

5) For being a good person to copy answers off. 

5 things you want to do

wait, like. things I want to do right now? if so, then here are my answers

1) I really really want to kiss him right now. Ugh

2) I want to hang out with a friend. 

3) Go sky diving

4) Ride Dr Dooms free falling tower

5) Kiss him. I sound desperate. ugh.

5 things you’ll never do

1) Do drugs

2) Get so drunk I black out 

3) Kill someone 

4) get an abortion

5) Break someones heart on purpose.

5 good things about you

1) I'm willing to listen to someones problems 

2) I'm pretty patient, but I snap.

3) I can have a good time if I want to 

4) I'm apparently funny 

5) I apparently have good leadership skills.

5 bad things about you

1) I'm fat.

2) I have a crappy temper 

3) I have sorta low self esteem

4) I'm kind of bossy

5) I have a tendency to cry when angry.

5 ways to make you cry

1) Break my heart

2) Go on about my imperfections

3) Tell me you don't want to be my friend anymore

4) if someone close to me died

5) Insult me & mean it completely. 

5 ways to win your heart

1) Be sweet

2) Actually listen to me

3) Sing to me 

4) Be someone I can joke around with

5) Be Christian. 

5 things you need to say 

That I need to say? To someone right now? 

I'll do that one. 

1) I like you. I have no freaking idea why, but somehow I do and it's scaring the shit out of me. You're nothing I want, but apparently everything I need.

2) Seriously, Screw off. I don't want to talk to you about your insane issues, and I really don't care.

3) STOP TEXTING ME ABOUT HIM. DO YOU KNOW HOW FREAKING ANNOYING THAT IS. I don't give a shit when you tell me everything I've already heard of before! 

4) Can we please meet? We've got so much shit in common & I think we should just meet already and be best friends for life or something. 

5) You are all the greatest friends I could ask for. You guys are amazing. You stand through all my bitchiness and somehow are able to hug me when I'm disgusting and bitchy. I love you guys for it. 

Hm. New Year

New year = New me. Right? 

No, New Year = Old me - some harsh opinions. 

I'm turning into someone I promised myself that I wouldn't turn into. I decided to get drunk for the first time & I was hungover on New years day. Surprisingly, it wasn't that bad. I mean, I just took a shot... or two & just started acting a bit tipsy but I soon fell asleep around 6 am. :| It was an ... interesting experience.

But, I have a drinking buddy now. Aubree & Tyler but now I've decided I like myself better sober, so I'll only drink on special occasions (BUT EVERYDAY IS A SPECIAL OCCASION!)  

Anyways, It's official. I'm gone for the month of May. I'm going to have to catch up on so much shit. Next semester I've got ; Geography, Math, Photography, Graphic arts & band/jewelry arts. 

I'm going to have to work so hard on Math & Geo. They're my worst subjects. I'm so scared of failing the 10th grade. My science mark isn't that great and I don't want to fail it. 

Philippines in May, We're leaving 3 days after my birthday. Why do we always leave by or on my birthday? Last year we left on my birthday for Florida. I have to say, it wasn't that great. My own parents forgot it was my birthday and one of the first happy birthdays I've got was over facebook. Not on the plane, Not at the airport. FACEBOOK. Ugh. But that's okay, that night we went out for food and I got sung to at the restaurant and I got free cake out of it. :'D 

I'm so excited to be able to see my parents homes though. My mom lived on a farm, and the farm is still there. THEY HAVE A MANGO TREE. A FREAKING MANGO TREE. Oh, and they also have like, a billion other fruit trees but I'm mainly excited for the mango tree. Mango is my favourite fruit. My daddys family lived  in Metro Manila and apparently it's by MoA. No one from his family knows we're going. We're planning on turning up on their doorstep and just freaking them out. It sounds so fun & I can't wait. I just don't know how I'll survive the 12 hour plane ride. I'm guessing I should bring a lot of books. Or get an iPod. Hm. 

Anyways, I'm just super super excited for this year. I'm excited for Family camp in June. I'm excited for Youth Camp 2012, and I'm excited for summer break. Oh, I'm also excited to finally meet Miguel. HAHAH. 

Er- Anyways... 

Until next time, 

Love, Jasmine/Jassy Rae/Ameng/Shorty/